One of the Many Things I Suck At – Communicating

My ideal version of my self is someone that’s fun to be with, mostly because I am aware that I am the least fun to be with. I’ve always been the kind that’s silent. I’ve always been a follower. I never planned a party or a nightout on my own. When I am somewhere else aside from my room, that’s because some extrovert dragged me there. Days before a gathering I’d always think ahead and worry of being left alone in a venue full of people. I’d worry that I’d never blend in, that I’d just sit alone in a table while everyone else keeps up with each other – and these are not worries out of blue because I’ve been in that situation for a hundred times since I was a kid. Continue reading One of the Many Things I Suck At – Communicating

Older and Less Wiser

Have you ever felt like you are pinned to your day job with zero progress while the younger generation is out there, conquering the world? What is happening?

To clarify, I am a millennial. I am 22 years old, and I am referring to the people who are 1 to 3 years younger than me who are now looking so accomplished. Not everyone, but most of them. I feel like it wouldn’t take a year for me to have a boss that was my junior in highschool. There really is nothing wrong with that, but the problem is with me. I feel like I am stagnant, like everyone else is freely running, reaching their dreams, but I am still learning how to run. Continue reading Older and Less Wiser

My Thoughts on Alcohol

I have been drunk a number of times – with that, I meant the drunkest among the people I was drinking with. Sure, drinking is fun but most of the time, I instantly regret drinking the moment I wake up a day after that. I have really bad hangovers, probably because of my lifestyle, yet I always manage to convince myself that the hangover will subside, but the memories will last forever.

There are really times when I crave drinking and some people’s company. Sometimes, I don’t crave drinking but when a friend mentions drinks, I just go with the flow and realize that alcohol tastes as good even when I am not craving it. Continue reading My Thoughts on Alcohol

I Built Friendships I Can’t Keep

I haven’t done any research but I’ve heard and seen enough to say that normally, each person has a bestfriend. I never thought that at 21, after all the abilities that I lack, I would end up questioning my ability to keep friends.

When I was a kid, there were a few kids I normally hang out with. I used to think that I had friends, lots of it. I was quite in demand as a playmate. Right now I realize that we were friends because we sat together in class for years or it’s because our moms were friends with each other and we were forced to play as they hang out. Continue reading I Built Friendships I Can’t Keep

Am I Leading A Boring Life?

I’ve been told many times that my life is boring and for all those times, I tried to argue and reason out. My life isn’t boring just because you have no idea how I am living it. Ofcourse I never said that, but I was so sure that they are only thinking that my life’s boring because they got no clue. I am not obliged to let them know how I am enjoying my life. They are not meant to judge whatever I do in the weekend. It is none of their business and it is absolutely so rude of them to tell me that my life is a lot less enjoyable than theirs. I was holding on to that thought – until someone very close to me told me that. So right now, I am quite convinced that I am living an extremely boring life. And I am both pissed and sad to slowly realize that everyone who’s telling me that I lead a boring life, could be right. Continue reading Am I Leading A Boring Life?

Behind Closed Doors by B.A. Paris (Book Summary)

Grace and Jack Angel appears to be a happy couple, they also seem too perfect. Jack is a lawyer who never lost a case and Grace is a housewife. They’ve been married for a year and are living in a house they planned together. However, that perfect life is a lie because the truth is – Jack is keeping Grace as a prisoner, and they are far from being happy because they don’t act as couples when they are alone. Continue reading Behind Closed Doors by B.A. Paris (Book Summary)

Behind Closed Doors by B.A. Paris (Book Review)

What I liked about it:

Easy to read. It was such a short read for me, probably because I was expecting the novel to get more complicated. However, it is a good thing that this was such an easy read – minimal characters, uncomplicated way of narration.
Plot. The plot will make me look forward to how the book will end. Since the story revolves around the wife, saving herself from her husband – wanting to know if they’d get saved made me hang on to the story.

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Caraval by Stephanie Garber (Book Summary)

Scarlett Dragna has been writing letters to Legend, the master of Caraval, since she was a kid. She wanted to play in Caraval, along with her younger sister, Donatella Dragna. When Scarlett was about to get married, she sent one last letter to Legend and that time, she got a reply, and an invitation. Scarlett, Tella and Julian (the sailor) went to Caraval, however Tella was kidnapped by Legend and it turns out that the game revolves around Tella. The first player that finds Tella wins and can get a wish, as a reward. Scarlett and Julian helped each other and eventually fell inlove with each other (it was originally Tella and Julian however Julian admitted that he was just using Tella to be able to get hold of the ticket to Caraval.) The two of them played the game, looking for clues and helping each other. They have been warned that most parts of the game are not real, however they were still fearful (they even got hurt) when they saw Scarlett’s father and her fiancée. They are the person Tella and Scarlett are running away from but they followed them to Caraval and they wanted to take the siblings home, to punish them. Continue reading Caraval by Stephanie Garber (Book Summary)

Caraval by Stephanie Garber (Book Review)

When I read it: I liked the setting at first, although it got confusing by the time they entered Caraval. I just could not imagine what Caraval looks like. I am not sure if this looks like a Carnival, if the game is like a festival, or if this is supposed to be a gloomy setting. Does Caraval look like an old palace where players get lost? Scarlett and Julian run, hide and chase someone and I am a little confused with how I could imagine these scenes because one moment it was magical but then it is suddenly dark on the next.  Continue reading Caraval by Stephanie Garber (Book Review)

False Memory by Dean Koontz (Book Review)

What I liked about it:

Rare Plot: It’s not a usual novel that revolves around death. It does not start with a mysterious death by a serial killer that detectives chase the entire book. It starts with no death at all, just a couple of weird things they could not explain.
There were many questions that kept me going, but it never got to the point that I was confused. Also, the questions that I had were all answered in the end.
Connections that I never saw coming. There is more to the villain and his actions, at the near end of the novel it turns out that there was a reason why the main victims, Martie and Dusty, were chosen. Continue reading False Memory by Dean Koontz (Book Review)