Older and Less Wiser

Have you ever felt like you are pinned to your day job with zero progress while the younger generation is out there, conquering the world? What is happening?

To clarify, I am a millennial. I am 22 years old, and I am referring to the people who are 1 to 3 years younger than me who are now looking so accomplished. Not everyone, but most of them. I feel like it wouldn’t take a year for me to have a boss that was my junior in highschool. There really is nothing wrong with that, but the problem is with me. I feel like I am stagnant, like everyone else is freely running, reaching their dreams, but I am still learning how to run.

Let me give you an example. I know someone who’s graduating, working so hard on the deadlines, but also rehearsing everynight for a pageant. This other girl is doing real well as an engineering student but at the same time she owns a printing business (she started with bookmarks then expanded into making invitations). I don’t blame them for being so talented and for using their time wisely, but there will always be a part of me that wants to stand in front of them and ask them how they did it. (Probably have a little talk to slow them down haha!)

With all those teenagers that are shining so bright, pressure builds up within me everyday. Everyday I feel like I am not doing enough. I work a day job, sounds decent, but others are doing greater things on top of their day jobs. Every day I think of writing a novel, but I don’t write it anyway because I get lazy, I get tired, and I feel no motivation. Everyday I pressure myself to have a better blog, to take everything to the next level, but I still don’t do it anyway because I am too pressured I have no clue which step to take first.

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Eva Harmoni

There was one night when the rain poured so hard, and i didn't want it to stop. Weird, because i was afraid and amused by the sound of the rain and thunder. The sound of it made me less alone that night. The next day i woke up to find my collection of journals soaked. I keep it near the window to make sure no one could read it. The writings can still be read but i was devastated by the damage. I wanted it preserved but i don't want it published. Still amused by the rain but afraid of the wrath it could bring to my journals, i created this blog.

5 thoughts on “Older and Less Wiser”

  1. Remember my fave Wayne Dyer’s quote: “Wherever you are, at whatever age, you’re only one thought away from changing your life.” You can do anything you set your mind to. Those other people don’t have the unique and specific qualities you possess that make you the exact person the world needs in this generation 🙂

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  2. This sentiment is quite common, I think. I’m sure if you were to swap places with the people you view to be successful, their lives and routine would not necessarily align with, or accommodate, your personal desires. Life is redeemable in small moments – the larger success stories require years of discipline and attention, at the cost of a myriad of other things. Everyone needs to weigh it up for themselves, in the end. The choice is always yours. Best of luck to you and keep writing, it’s a true form of catharsis.

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