It Was Never Easy for Me (Poem #11)

Was it easy
telling me you love me
and at the same time
wanting to be free?

Was it easy
forcing yourself to forget her
just to shut me up?
Was it easy
taking down your pride
to remain by my side
and then later on wonder
what the fight would be like
if you had it with her?

And if you ask me
if it has ever been easy
to hold your hand
and to figure out
how i should feel
now that i am aware
that when you’re with me
you’d rather be with her,

then my answer would be my silence
followed by what you’ve always wanted
my absence

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Eva Harmoni

There was one night when the rain poured so hard, and i didn't want it to stop. Weird, because i was afraid and amused by the sound of the rain and thunder. The sound of it made me less alone that night. The next day i woke up to find my collection of journals soaked. I keep it near the window to make sure no one could read it. The writings can still be read but i was devastated by the damage. I wanted it preserved but i don't want it published. Still amused by the rain but afraid of the wrath it could bring to my journals, i created this blog.

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