You Were the Risk I Wanted (Poem #1)

In the end
I could still not say
that we never should’ve started
because if all along
I knew that you’d be a mistake
then i still would’ve kept assuring everyone
that i will not regret

If all along i knew you’d be a crime
I’d commit you anyway
while asking for forgiveness the whole time

In the end
I could still not say
that when you walked my way
I should’ve scurried away

In the end
as i hold on to the pieces of myself
I could still not say
that i was a victim
that i was betrayed
because all along
the risk hid beneath my head
but i took it anyway
and ended up wanting it.

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Eva Harmoni

There was one night when the rain poured so hard, and i didn't want it to stop. Weird, because i was afraid and amused by the sound of the rain and thunder. The sound of it made me less alone that night. The next day i woke up to find my collection of journals soaked. I keep it near the window to make sure no one could read it. The writings can still be read but i was devastated by the damage. I wanted it preserved but i don't want it published. Still amused by the rain but afraid of the wrath it could bring to my journals, i created this blog.

28 thoughts on “You Were the Risk I Wanted (Poem #1)”

  1. This is a lovely poem. I just read it and decided to write an answer poem to yours:

    You Were The Rush I Waited

    In the beginning
    I could still choose to stay
    where you’d be my endless trip
    because along the way
    I hoped I’d be your mistake
    then I still would’ve incurring myself
    that I won’t feel guilty.

    If all along you’d be my handcuffs
    I’ll stay in prison without you
    while praying for tireless time we had.

    In the beginning
    I could still be silenced
    that when I ran your path
    I should’ve stay by your side.

    In the beginning
    as I carry on to the last piece of you
    I could still choose to stay
    that I am a rapist
    that I was molesting your heart
    because along the way
    the rush kid beneath mine
    but I stole it anyway
    and ended up giving it away.

    This is a poem of regret and guilt. Hope you like it! 😊

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      1. Thank you again! Most of my poems are on Instagram / Facebook / Twitter. Feel free to check them out. But i would also be posting most of my poems here soon. Hope to come across some of your writings too!


  2. An interesting dialogue is price comment. I feel that you must write more on this matter, it won’t be a taboo topic however typically persons are not enough to talk on such topics. To the next. Cheers


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